update fall 2023

[biddyfox]

good grief! there's some stupid fucking shit on this blog from this year. this spring and summer were extended lapses of reason; the full premises of my mind had suddenly been unlocked to me, and I picked the worst possible routes through them. I kept going from the kitchen to the living room through the connecting bathroom and not the main hall, stuff like that. purple prose aside, there was a lot of stuff going on that was making me miserable. its gone now. i stopped talking to people who made me feel worthless and horrible for not respecting feelings they would never explain to me. i stopped letting them ignore mine and undermine my sense of self. I've been taking pills that are slowly turning me into the real person and not the shell. none of you motherfuckers will be ready. none of you motherfuckers will EVER be ready.

cw: pet death
also, my cat died. I miss her a lot. I don't have more to say about it.