REPUBLIC OF HEAVEN

i made this blog more than two years ago now, in an attempt to make my life better than it was. i was pretty miserable. i didn't even know if i was a girl anymore. i've spent a lot of my lifetime being miserable. i've spent a lot of my lifetime unsure of whether or not i'm a girl. now i wear tartan skirts and knee high converse. now when a stranger tries to help me they get my attention by yelling "ma'am!"

understand this.

i am happy.

i am alive.

i intend to keep being happy, and keep being alive, for as long as i can sustain it.

i started my skincare routine again this morning.

i bought a ticket to a rave this morning.

i talked to many of the people i love most in the world this morning.

i am gaining weight. i am losing acne. my fat is redistributing. i just switched to patches.

i am going to be okay.