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biddyfoxi did a cover of There Is A Light That Never Goes Out when I was sixteen. it has banjo, my favorite instrument.
there used to be this guy who was kind of in love with me. he was a not very good person but a lot of that was my fault. me and him and a mutual friend used to hang out a lot over discord calls, each of us on a different part of the world. it was very emotionally big and important. it sucked for all of us because we just hurt each other constantly. on these calls i used to listen to there is a light that will never go out. it's a very good song. even morrissey's lyrics and singing escape their typical gracelessness and become beautiful.
for basically the entire year of 2019 i don't remember very much besides that. and even then all i know about that is that it happened. i dont remember details, i dont remember events. i remember that the three of us broke up and it was awful and i kept contact with the guy who was the worst person id ever met and not the girl who was kind and full of love and i have trouble forgiving myself for that. but it was just online shit. that can affect you as much as anything in reality but it is difficult to let it affect me personally. through all of 2019 i listened to a lot of the smiths on my iphone, in general. it is in my dna and will be forever.
i covered it so that it would become mine. i covered it to sound like a weird surreal version of a campfire sing along, with layers of acoustic percussion and banjo and acoustic guitar and shit, but like, the guitar goes distorted in the chorus so thats why its surreal. idk. its not actually that surreal. but thats me taking that song for my own. im proud of it.
there used to be this guy who was kind of in love with me. he was a not very good person but a lot of that was my fault. me and him and a mutual friend used to hang out a lot over discord calls, each of us on a different part of the world. it was very emotionally big and important. it sucked for all of us because we just hurt each other constantly. on these calls i used to listen to there is a light that will never go out. it's a very good song. even morrissey's lyrics and singing escape their typical gracelessness and become beautiful.
for basically the entire year of 2019 i don't remember very much besides that. and even then all i know about that is that it happened. i dont remember details, i dont remember events. i remember that the three of us broke up and it was awful and i kept contact with the guy who was the worst person id ever met and not the girl who was kind and full of love and i have trouble forgiving myself for that. but it was just online shit. that can affect you as much as anything in reality but it is difficult to let it affect me personally. through all of 2019 i listened to a lot of the smiths on my iphone, in general. it is in my dna and will be forever.
i covered it so that it would become mine. i covered it to sound like a weird surreal version of a campfire sing along, with layers of acoustic percussion and banjo and acoustic guitar and shit, but like, the guitar goes distorted in the chorus so thats why its surreal. idk. its not actually that surreal. but thats me taking that song for my own. im proud of it.
